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i just wanted to say i am so sorry you lost your little girl.my boy kyena has been gone for almost 10wks and the pain is just as strong as the 1st day.i don’t believe it ever goes away we just find different ways to live with it and make it more manageable.it has been 6yrs since my grama lost my grampa and she still longs for him to just be in the same room with her.i think the loss of any form of love will always weigh heavy on our hearts we just get used to the weight.i think that you are going to be buried with your girls is beautiful and touching the sweetest thing.you will find the path that you need to follow to create a balance between keeping her memory alive and strong and allowing the pain to take a back seat in your everyday life.don’t try to force yourself to feel anything or do anything your not ready for.and remember she is still snuggled into your shoulder close to your heart.kyena’s mom,calavino
I to lost my little Papillon, Cassie Sue on September 10, and i can’t stop crying every single day. she was almost 10 and when me, her and her litter mate sister went to sleep she was fine and we all said good night and snuggled and i woke up in the morning and didn’t see her and i called for her and then thought she went out side thru the dog door to go potty and opened the door and couldn’t see her and then i started to scream because i knew something was wrong. i went to the other side of the bed and she was laying on the floor with her little head on a pillow my mother had made before she passed away. and she was so still and looked so peaceful but she must have died hours before because i couldn’t even close her eye. i just wrapped her up in a blanket and rocked her and cried and cried and screamed and screamed. i didn’t know what to do and being alone was worse. i waited for the vet office opened and took her in. my friend from work called them and told them i was coming in with her to be cremated because i couldn’t talk when i handed her over i thought i was going to die, my stomach hurt so bad and longed for her to give me one last hug-a-bug. when ever i said hug-a-bug when i held her she would lay, sometimes just flop her little head on my shoulder and snuggle up to me. the vet’s office never has asked me what happened. she had been having seizures for almost a year but i had them under control for a long time. i don’t think she had one that night because her fur under her chin was not wet. she was the most loving and loyal dog i have ever had. She was everything to me, followed me everywhere. her sissy misses her to. they never played with any toys or any other dog, just each other. she has nothing to do any more. i take her every where i can but to work. she is not a snuggler. she loves to be held but not close and doesn’t like to be by your face unless she can lick it. she is my most lickingest dog ever. we both ache for cassie sue, aka: my little angel pie, casserole, and cleopatra, we loved her more than anything. I, too, talk to her all the time just incase she is around in spirit. her ashes sit in my living room in a pretty box with a rose i was given at the time, lies on top. she will be buried with me when i go.. her sissy Soxie Sue will be put in the same box so they can be together forever when its time and then rest with me. my family knows this. how long does one ache for them?
thank you very much for your kind words and my heart goes out to you to. it’s unbelievabel the amount of saddness that a death causes, it’s the heaviest thing i have ever felt. as i read these pet loss stories i just cry for every one and all our sad stories. you have had so much trauma in your life and yet you are ther to help others during your own healing process, you are a god sent and are a very wonderful person and Kyena couldn’t have had a more wonderful mom and i’m sure you gave hm a wonderful life. i know it would be just as hard when they go even if you know it’s going to happen before but when it is sudden and unexplained there are just so many unanswered questions. i’m so blessed to have cassie sue’s sissy with me to go thru this together, if i’d been alone i think i would have gone crazy by now. i have had animals all my life but this one hit the hardest when her time came, so early, i expected to have her at least 5 more years. now when i look at soxie sue i have to keep reminding myself not to think about her time and just to appreciate what ever time we have left. thanks god she seems healthy, not that seems to have anything to do with it. 🙁 i have so many beautiful pictures of cassie and a lot of the two together. they are always on my screen saver here and at work. i’ve always thought they were so beautiful it was hard for me to be away at work and not see them that i have their pictures there on the wall and always on my wallpaper on the computer. Aniamls make the best friends ever and the unconditional love they have for us and we for them is almost unbelievable and not totally understood till they leave us. i agree with you also that if one feels like crying … just do it. hopefully one day it will ease up. thank you listening and is we all keep communicating about all this maybe it can help. thank you
hi,i’m glad it helped even a little bit.i think this is perhaps my healing process i’ve always been more interested in helping other people.you know the i’ll give away my last dollar when there’s no food in my house kinda girl.kyena,i always let him be there for me but i was there for everyone else before i was there for myself.he gave me a wonderful life and it will never be the same.i always hated to go to work or anywhere really without him always took him or rushed home if i couldn’t.my boy was older than your girl but even his vet thought he had at least 2 more years he was so healthy.you’re right about the not expecting it making it harder but at least they didn’t suffer.take good care of your other baby and let her take care of you.kyena’s mom
It’s been one month and 11 days and i still cry every day wishing you were still with me cassie sue, i still cannot figure out why you left when you were so well. your sissy misses you too. she still doesn’t do much but just sit in the window and wait for me to get home so she has some company. she doesn’t even bark 1/4 of what she used to when you were there, must not be as much fun now all by herself when she had you from birth till you left. why oh why did you have to go, with out a word of warning. we miss you so. sometimes i still feel you there. i just wish i knew why and what happened, i hope so bad that nothing hurt when you left. i’ll wuv you forever angel pie!
I’m really sorry for your loss, I’m in major mourning at the mo for my Griffon Ganymede, he died in my arms on his 9th birthday 27th September, I too was alone and have really been affected by the whole event, it’s nearly 5wks now and I’m still crying every day. Too soon, he wasn’t due to go for another 5 or 6 yrs, so I thought. I miss him in everything I do, he was my shadow everywhere I went, such a strong bond. He was my baby ! I can relate to several things you’ve said, I too long to be able to just scoop him up, to feel his fluffy fur again. I have 2 kittens which has helped, don’t know what I’d have done without them, but I’m finding it really difficult allowing myself to be happy again, to take pleasure in what I still have, I feel so sad every day, Ganny doesn’t realise just how much he’s missed ! My thoughts are with you.
Thank you so much Creativz. I give you also my sincere condolences. it so amazing how missed an animal can be and how much part of some peoples lives they become. i have had animals all my live and this time has been the worst for this loss. living alone makes it harder. having her sister in way makes easier and yet sometimes harder. i look at her and just tell her not to go, that i couldn’t take it. you must enjoy your little kittens, they are probably a lot of help playing with them and watching them play, kittens are so very entertaining. i’m looking for another dog but i keep making excuses not to get another one until i feel better which who knows how long that could be. it has to be just the right match so as not to over power the one i have left, she’s only 5 pounds. prettiest and sweetest dog in the world and i’m sure that isn’t because i’m as loyal to her as she to me. Her sister was much more cuddly though and that i miss a lot. still cry every day and wishing her to be here and wanting her to go to the rainbow… thanks again and i’m so sorry for your loss too, i truly know how hard it is.
she loves you too.
Ode to Cassie Sue Once I had two little Papillons, as dear as dear can be. Two cute little sisters full of pep, as sweet as honey bees. Together they danced and play, here and there, all over the place I could watch for hours these pups perform with butterfly grace. They filled my house and heart with so much love and joy. They never chewed shoes or anything, they did nothing to make me annoyed. When I would say to them ?girls want to go for a walk??, They?d jump and whine, and carry on just to go around the block. 9 years had passed and our love grew and grew for each other. They were my pals, my friends, my girls, and I was their loving mother. Every day I?d say to them You?re so cute, I wuv you sooo much. Come here Cassie Sue and Soxie Sue, so I can feel your touch.. Then one night we went to bed, you gave me my kiss night night, We all went to sleep and without A peep, Cassie that night, you died. You were gone, just like that, without a clue that anything was wrong. I woke up and looked for you, I found you close by, then I knew? I screamed and was anything but strong. I held you so tight and rocked you awhile, and pleaded for you to come back. Soxie laid there so still and just stared at you, our world had just turned black. It?s been 2 months, since I held you, and I miss you just the same. Soxie still mourns and is so very bored, I?m afraid to say your name. They say with time our hearts will heal, and we?ll smile when we think of you. We are learning to be just ?us two? But we feel you near every now and then, our beautiful Cassie Sue. Go to the bridge, the Rainbow Bridge. Go find Jake somewhere, He?ll show you around and teach you to play And Soxie will soon be there. Then thereafter I shall come and pick you up and ask you for a hug-a-bug. You?ll lean your head under my chin Just like how we used to snug. We miss you, we love you, this can never change. We?ll live and we?ll love each other But without you here it will be strange. So long my baby, so long my Cassie, So long my Angel Pie. We will meet again, the three of us In God?s heavenly sky. Once I had two little Papillons, And for now I just have one? love you forever and ever and ever, mommy and Soxie Sue :'(
oh cassie sue, mommy misses you so much still and i cry for you each day. it still breaks my heart each time someone asks about you and i tell them you are gone. i see a christmas tree here all decorated but a little papillon is missing from the house. soxie sue still misses you a lot. she finds no reason to do much barking and hardly ever jumps up and run the thru the doggy door to go chase all the people away that stroll by. she just sits there all day long staring out the window. we miss you so much. i still always say my "dogs" or my "girls". i want you back so bad. i want to rock you in my arms like a little baby the way you use to like all the time. it’s been over 3 months and i still cry so much for you. i hope you are having fun where ever you may be. i love you so much, merry christmas my big girl, my little hug-a-bug…
I just wish I could of said goodbye to my loving gerbil Trouble I miss her very much on christmas day this year she passed away and i cannot stop crying she was a loving gerbil I wish i could have just held her one more time before she passed away :'( :'(
Oh cassie, i still miss you so much, it’s unbelievable. i want you here so bad it still makes me cry. we still love you so so much. people have been so sympathetic towards me and gave me stuff for christmas from you. a diamond picture frame for me to pick a picture of you for it. a "i am happy in heaven this christmas" ornament, and auntie carol drew with colored pencil a picture of you and soxie sitting on the back of the leather couch looking out the window. it is like a 16X20 and matted and framed and looks so perfect and so real that i cried for 5 minutes before i could say thank you after opening. i have you everywhere. i am so glad i have so many pictures of you, over 100 i bet. i got a memorial rock and a stepping stone also for presents from you. i cried so much on christmas for not having you with us. i love you so much. i still cry each day. Soxie likes to lick my tears away of course. she still misses you so much. she hasn’t played for 4 1/2 months now and that is so sad to watch. so sorry to see you leave. maybe it’d be easier if i could say, at least you are in no pain any more… buy you never were in pain, just died out of the blue, just died and you were fine. why? i love you hug-a-bug, my angel pie. i made you a website http://www.dogster.com/?81574 love you, love you, love you, love mommie
happy valentine’d day angel pie. i am missing you each and every day. it is a quiet home now. i cry each day hoping that i soon will just smile when i think of you but i still ache for my little girl. soxie is taking on some of your traits now. sometimes i feel like maybe it’s you visiting us. we both miss you so much. Cassie baby, you are my love still right now, right here on this day of valentines. i love you so much my little hug a bug. i would like to thank every one who has ever tried to comfort me. it is nice to know others care. it is sad that most the others have had to go through so much pain also though to understand the pain that stays for so long. I hope we can all feel better with time.
Just wanted to say, hope you’re doing ok……. I know it’s so hard. I saw your Cassie site, she’s beautiful ! I clicked her a couple of bone treatz…. 🙂 I hope Soxie’s well and that you’re both looking after each other. Take Good Care.
I am so sorry for your loss. I wake up every night almost crying because I have nightmares my Aussie Boy who is 70 years old dies. HE hasnt yet of course but I have no idea what I will do when he passes. I am so sorry for you Good bless you puppies and you Lezly
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