Pedro "Peetie" The Chihuahua Mix

4th July 2004 to 4th January 2007, Aged 2

From Michelle Anderson, Florida

Peetie.....where do I begin, my friend, my buddy, my "child". I have other pets, horses and other dogs as well. They mean as much to me as you do, but you had an energy about you that I can't explain. You were sent to me when I needed you most. I had just lost a horse that was only 6 years old, it was during the hurricanes and Megan had foundered and I had to make what I thought was the worst decision in my life, to have her put down. I swore that I wouldn't get another animal...besides I had other dogs and horses at home. A friend walked over to me with a box full of puppies and I told her don't even come over here I don't want another dog. Of curse she brought the box anyway. There were some other people gathered around talking about how cute they were and I was afraid to look, but I did and I reached into the box and pulled out what I will always say was the "cutest" I bet you didn't even weigh 1/2 a pound. I brought you home and introduced you to "Jose" my other Chihuahua. The two of you kept me busy but the payoff was was awesome. I had the two best years with you until one morning you wanted to go out so bad (just like any other night) you woke me up so that you could go out. Within 20 seconds my life changed FOREVER! 

The reason that you wanted to go out was because one of the female bulldogs that sleeps out side was in heat. (I have a total of 3 bull dogs outside , 2 female, 1 male) what happened next I am really unsure of but I know that it was less that 20 seconds. I guess that you went to her (Taffy) like you had done so many other times before when she was in heat....this time was different the male dog (Marshall) growled at you and I heard you yelp and I ran from the front door (where I had just let you out) to the back door. There you were laying (limp) on the back steps. You did have a history of seizures so I was hoping that was the case. I picked you up and came inside with you, I could feel you heart still beating but you were so limp, I cried out loud Peetie it's going to be ok, Mommy is here. Still feeling you heart beating I rocked you until I couldn't feel it anymore, you were gone. I had you wrapped in your favorite blanket and rocked you for at least an hour or two. 

I couldn't believe that you were gone. I was waiting to wake up from this awful NIGHTMARE but I never did. Daddy made you a sweet coffin out of cedar but Daddy had to go to work and it left me there to deal with your death alone. Of course Jose was there on my lap as I rocked you and rocked you. He licked you as to let you know that he knew too that you were gone. Daddy had placed your coffin on our bed and had called a friend to help me with your burial. I finally had to let you go so I placed you in the beautiful box that Daddy made just for you. You looked so peaceful. I knew in a matter of time my 2 nieces (Carla & Clarissa ) would be there to stay for the day and I had to figure out a way I was going to deal with you leaving us so soon. Carla especially because she lives with us 90% of the time, Clarissa lives in Texas with her Mom (my nieces were 10 & 12 at the time) They came over and as soon as they came inside the house they knew something was wrong. They said good morning to Jose and asked where you were and I said that you were gone and Carla said what do you mean gone? And I said gone, gone. Carla hit the floor crying. I took the two of them by there hands to my bed were you laid and we cried and remembered all the good times that we had with you. 

During Halloween Carla was a "she devil" and you were "peetie the count" the two of you looked so cute in you costumes. We put one of you bones in with you and a picture of you and Carla from Halloween. We also put a Halloween toy that was a bat. The girls cried and kissed on you because they couldn't believe that you would no longer be with us any longer, it just didn't seem real. You looked like an angel laying there, I couldn't get enough of you at that moment. I hurt for you everyday and I don't want to hurt I want to enjoy what we had you were loved by so many.... Memaw & Pops, uncle Stevie even uncle Daryl. Aunt Rhonda and everyone that ever laid eyes on you thought you were the cutest. A piece of me left with you that day. Even though you were so happy. I still want you back. I know that sounds selfish but it's true but I know that you are in good hands. Some day we will be reunited. But until then my precious little boy not a day goes by since you left I haven't shed a tear over you. I am thankful that you went so quick....not a mark on you I guess that you just literally got scarred to death. But I LOVE you and miss you everyday more and more. 

I know that you know we did get another dog that desperately needed a home and Jose was so lost with out you "Chili" came to us at just the right time I guess you could say, maybe from you. I swear he has your spirit. The things that I love about you so much he does except one, you used to smile and everyone that met you couldn't believe it, it was so precious. But Chili has certain things that he does too that are funny too, although he is not you and will never replace you he has a good home and I know that you would approve! I miss you waking me up in the middle of the day to go out and chase squirrels and the horses. Remember I decided to work at night just so that I could be here with you and all the others during the day, I hate leaving any of you alone, it just breaks my heart. But coming home to you & the others in the morning after working a 12 hr shift made up for all the guilt. 

I still have some of your old bones that you would chew on and all of your toys and you bed is still in the same spot, Jose sleeps in it often. I will never forget you, I would like for the pain of your loss to subside, they say time heals all wounds. That's fine I just never want to forget that face that made me feel like a Mommy (since I could never have children) I gave you the best home that I could and I hope you know that. It's been almost 4 months but it seems like yesterday you were in my arms but you will be forever in my heart. See ya someday buddy, I love you and I miss you! Love & kisses, Mommy