What happens after???

I have just lost my Pom due to a terrible accident. I am devastated. I was at work and my babysitter did not watch close enough. She fell in our pool and drowned. She was going to be 1 year old this month. I have her sister still but both my husband and I have not been able to function since this happened. We lay in bed at night crying. I have not been able to go back to work yet. It has only been 2 days. She was EVERYTHING to us.
   
The worst part is, she is buried in our yard. She is wrapped up warm and laying in her bed but, I can barely handle her out there all by herself, cold, in the dirt. I want so bad to go hold her, make her ok. I don't know what to do. Is she alone, is she scared, I am so afraid for her. I have tried reading everything I can but can't find anything about this feeling. She is just so beautiful, I can't stand the thought of where she is. How do I work through this.

I am so sorry for your loss. What you are feeling is normal. Last year i lost my Dog, Nick suddenly. I was devistated and in shock. I walked around in a haxe for several weeks. there is a wonderful group with people who have gone through and are going through this if you are up for it you might want to check out the site
   
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Thank-you. It feels better to hear someone else has felt this.
   
I did go to the site, it is beautiful. My feeling still won't go away though. Unfortunately I tend to be too concrete of a person and I guess I am seaching for a science kind of answer (gentle still though, I can't handle much right now).
   
I know my question is probably impossible to answer for certain. I just WANT to hear... she is not there, does not know where you've put her, is not scared, is not missing you, does not remember how she got there, is not suffering (like we are), is not getting wet because it is raining and does not hear the thunder AND we know this because........
   
I hate the way I feel. I want it to just go away.